I guess this is the end of one chapter and the start of another.
Tomorrow is my last official day of class at UCLA. I’m kind of sad, relieved, and scared at the same time. I kind of don’t know what to do with myself after. I mean, I do have two internships, kind of, and also some freelance work, but nothing stable. I need to start planning all of this stuff out. Where am I going to live next year?! :( I’m so lost, someone please guide me. Please.
I think all this stress, anxiety, and frustration is really playing with my emotions. My emotions are fluttering up and down lately, mostly down though hahahahaa. It doesn’t help that I am severely annoyed with quite a few people right now. Friends, Roommates, Co-Workers, etc. I just need to get away. I need a vacation, which I think I’m going to finally get in a month. Blah. Either I’m becoming a bad friend and suck at holding friendships or my friends just suck. I’m going to go with the former. I hate it when people say things that they never end up doing, especially when that happens multiple times. I’m just completely fed up with it. I’m sick on inconsiderate, ignorant, stupid people. Okay, I can’t think anymore. My brain’s fried. I don’t even know what I’m mad about anymore. I don’t know what I’m doing anymore. I don’t even know what day it is anymore. My friend just told me she’s sad that we’re done now. I’m sad too. I’m depressed. Okay no, seriously, someone cheer me up. I miss my friends. I miss my family. I miss a lot of things right now. I want to break down but I can’t think. I’m numb. MAKE EVERYTHING OKAY.
