I think I’m finally spiraling down into darkness. Its not helping that my iTunes keps shuffling to depressing songs. God so many things on my mind. Hopefully this new project will help me keep my mind off of things. At least for a while.
Okay seriously stop haunting me in my dreams. You did this last time too. Out of all the times to be doing this, I really wish we weren’t doing it right now. I really don’t.
Note to self for (near) future reference:
A wise man once told me that you have to forgive each other and not get hung up on the past.
I feel drunk right now. A little hung over. Its a weird feeling. And no, I did not drink, but that’s how I feel. It could also be the music I’m listening to. One of my favorite feelings is listening to electronic music full blast (full throttle, Charlie Angels 2) while buzzed. Its a very hypnotic feeling where I can just tune out everything and just listen to the music. Such a e-head thing to say. Funny thing is that I’ve never been to rave or done e. I absolutely love rave music though. I’m currently blasting Hot Chip – I Feel Better. Its a pretty good feeling.
On another note, I had another long and relatively fun night yesterday. Lots of drinking, lots of singing, lots of shouting, lots of good company, and best of all, good music. I love my friends. We have so much fun, its kind of ridiculous. I’m getting way too old for this ish. I got back at 6AM this morning. Night of drinking at my apartment then off to the nrb we went until about 5 in the morning and then headed back to my apartment. Probably did a few things I shouldn’t have. I’ll be smarter about it next time haha. I promise, but I mean, hey how much longer can I keep it up like this before I REALLY have to face the real world? Plus, I really need these nights to keep my minds off a few things. Its been a pretty hard week, but luckily lots of work, fun, and good friends have helped me get through it. It kind of really sucks right now actually haha. But whatever. I’ll get through it. There’s so much I could say right now. So much that I’ve been thinking this past week. So much that I’ve bottled up inside of me. So many emotions running through me right now that I just want to let go. But I think I’m just going to let it brew for a little longer. Maybe it’ll settle down or maybe it’ll boil over. I guess you’ll have to wait and see.
